Eeek! Lizard!

Eeek! Lizard!

This lizard phobia started when a lizard dropped onto my head one day while I was chatting with my friend in front of her shop. I just stood there frozen while my friend tried to get it off. It jumped from my head to my shoulder before hitting onto the ground.

All I did was screaming with my eyes tightly closed! Not so wise to do that, right? The lizard could have got into my opened mouth. But I was not thinking then. It was all fear reactions!

Since then, no lizards could get near me except for one extremely close encounter.

I visited a relative who stayed in a small village. He stayed alone and his toilet had no door! When there is an urge to use it, anything would do? No, no, no, I wanted a door for my privacy!

Since I insisted, he offered to hold the broken door leaning against the wall beside the toilet, so that I could have a door. And to my horror, there were about a dozen lizards sticking onto the other side of that rotten door, facing me!

TAKE THE DOOR AWAY! TAKE THE DOOR AWAY! GET IT AWAY FROM ME!!!!! NOW!!!!

I did a record breaking sprint out of the toilet, did not care where I was heading, what was on the floor, or what was around me. I just knocked, fumbled and ran far away from the toilet in the speed of lightning!

I could have died on the spot if my relative insisted to have that door closed on me!

With all the adrenalin commotion, there was no more urge to use the toilet. I left the house immediately with no remorse over my behaviour. And my relative had to apologise to me for not having a toilet door!

Now that I think about it, I should be the one who is sorry.

But, fear just took over me completely. And because of my phobia then, I had many, many lizards murdered so that they would not roam around the house.

The one that died the worst death was the one that had me spraying a whole new can of insect spray on it. It had a mountain of foam covering its body while I sat about six feet away from it making sure it was not moving. I was alone in the house that night and I practically did not sleep, just watching it!

And I was also praying very hard for it, asking for forgiveness, and wishing its next reincarnation would not be in the form of a lizard. And I was not proud of what I did, at all.

But I am glad that I have overcome this fear.

How? Anthony Robbins’ book: Unlimited Power has a chapter which you could hypnotize yourself to overcome cravings and phobias. It worked on me and I am extremely grateful to this writer who had changed my life. I have also got rid of my cravings for KFC at the same time.

I have learnt: Whether it is phobias or cravings, it is all in the mind. Our thoughts control our actions and reactions. Once we learn to control our thoughts, we could also control our life. We are in power to make the decision to allow or not to allow whatever or whoever affects us.

We are our own master or slave of our thoughts. We are what we think we are. … and we behave.. thinking… or unthinkingly…